It has been awhile

Good day all. It has been quite awhile since I made a post. In the past year I left my full time position, due to issues that I cannot get into right now (as they are still, technically, my employer by sub-contract). Let's just say it became detrimental to my mental health to continue in the cycle I was in and a change had to happen. I have spent my time working with the employer to ensure a smooth transition, working with my therapist to obtain the tools needed to strengthen my mental health, building an accounting business, something I can be proud to work at, and spending time with family and friends. This last one was the most important as I realized, through this process, that I had been neglecting my family and friends because I was working so much and I needed to reconnect. The most important lesson I have taken away from this past year is something very important for you all to know, as well...Take care of your mental health!!! No job, no fight, no relationship is more important than your mental health. You cannot have healthy relationships if your mental health is not doing well. You cannot make good choices or function at your best for your family, friends, and co-workers if you are failing yourself. I have struggled deeply with this. I sacrificed everything I was for my job and everything else, including my physical health and mental health suffered because of that. It was not an easy decision. I struggled with this decision and had to put aside many of the long held beliefs that I had. Change, itself, is not a bad thing. Change is the only constant in life. Change will happen. Managing and accepting change is hard but not impossible. It does take time, though. And you have to allow yourself the grace to go through the difficult changes in life. I have learned to be less critical of myself and to allow myself time to rest, cry, scream, and move on from those things that do not serve the greater good. Remember, if you are in a bad situation, you can move away from it...it will take grace, courage, and support. Just take one moment at a time and change can happen.

My sister asked me what I wanted from this page. My answer was, and still is, that I want to be the person I needed when I was going through hard times. I want to be there for you all and make sure you know that you can turn to me for help when needed. I am still here for that. This is your safe space, and I will do my best for you, always.